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So much hatred and contempt that I am chocking back right now.

Disappointment? Lets not even go there.

I'm done with this, fed up and tired.

The lesson learned here?

I'll get back to that when I get it straightened out.

Because you just got screwed over, and you don't even realize it.

I'm done.

DONE.

FINISHED.

Thank you so so much for what I get in return.

Wouldn't mind.

During the weekend, my cousin came over. She brought her baby over to visit.

Her name is Anne, she's adopted. And boy is she adorable!

I got a chance to feed her and put her to sleep! :)

1 month old baby Anne.

Mid term starts tomorrow with DTP (Desktop Publishing).

So much for studying, because all I have been doing is bumming around, eating and sleeping, finding excuses to avoid studying. How very productive.

The sun was shining, a bright sunny day.

I walked my balloon to lunch. :)

XX.

It was.

There's a difference between NEED and WANT.

Need; lasting, definite, bring you satisfaction.

Want; temporary, constantly changing and never satisfied.

I want to be needed,

Not just wanted as a person you would like to have; because there are no limits to a person's wants.

The more you want, the more selfish you become.

I'm tired of playing this stupid in between thing.

Yes or no. I'm tired of maybes.

Sometimes sorry just isn't good enough.

XX.

Law what?

AmandaFaith says:

babes I looked at the comm law slides..how do you stay awake in class?

jil sold her soul for the second time. says:

uhh

I was 25 minutes late the last class

hahaha

and lecture was only an hour

so yeah you can imagine

then today I was half asleep cause I woke up late and rushed to college.

AmandaFaith says:

nice la jil..its like nothing has changed (:

For the record, NOTHING really has changed. Trust me, you interns are not missing out on much, except for us. Yes, I know you miss us. :)

XX.

The importance of being idle.

So much for acceptance. I feel estranged and alienated.

You blame me, you blame my friends.

How the fuck is that even related?

No matter what condition and situation I'm in, I never fail to deliver.

I'm tired of the constant yelling. Its no wonder I'm hardly ever home.

Stop putting the blame on me.

On a random note,

With some steady ground and a growing path to follow, I feel a little happier then I have been for in awhile now. I'm beginning to make and plan my next few steps ahead.

I'm happy that I'm beginning to move.

Kite's.

XX.

Talk to me.

My eyes have been so swollen the last couple of days. Probably due to the late nights and early mornings.

I miss the holidays. Though I didn't exactly have the most healthy lifestyle, it sure beat the heck out of being back in college.

If you see me and I look right through, you should take it as a reflection of you.

XX.

Count me out.

I spent 2 hours working on my 1 page resume. I can only imagine how long its going to take me when I start on the 3 pages long essay for Comm Law due on Friday.

Being back in college has been a drag, probably due to the fact that its been 2 long years and more.

Truth be told, I'm just as scared about finishing college and having to step into the working world.

As for now, 1 step at a time.

XX.

1 of 2010.

I finally decided to reopen this space.

2010.
Why do people associate new years with new beginnings, resolutions and fresh starts?
What bullshit.

I spent the last hour backtracking through my old post. So many memories which brought me back to now and how things have changed.


Sorry for such a bitter post. Better one next time.

XX.